Crashing

I think I’ve never drank as much coffee as I do here.  I went to E-mart last night and purchased a sports water bottle so I could drink more water.  Hot/cold water dispensers are everywhere here, but you have to bring your own cup.  Instant coffee is also available for free from a machine in the teacher’s cafeteria, so I’ve been going down there during prep times for a cup.  The teachers, it seems, bring their own instant coffee, so maybe I am only supposed to do that during lunchtime?  Or are the teachers just too lazy to walk down the stairs?  Several teachers have asked me my opinion of the coffee, knowing I am from Seattle, home of Starbucks.  The truth is, it’s not that awful.  The machine is nice because you can choose what you want in it.  The “sticks” or tubes -shaped packages they buy are usually 75% sugar, so I don’t like those that much.  I tell the teachers that no it’s not as good, but I’m also happy to not spend half my income on coffee either, and explain how I have known people who spend $12 a day on coffee drinks.

Starbucks and Coffee Bean and all of their knock-offs are very popular here.  But the price is outrageous:  I really don’t know how people can afford it.  I mean, you can get brand new jeans here for the price of two fancy drinks.  You can buy a SUIT for the price of ten fancy coffee drinks here.  Maybe that’s not fair, because the cost of clothing is so cheap here.  But in relative terms, I think I’ll be drinking instant from now on.

But I’ve seriously got the caffeine crash going on right now.  Thus the water bottle.

Oh yeah, and if you are in a public place and you encounter a water dispenser, (they don’t have water fountains) instead of a cup dispenser, they have a little dispenser where you can get a flattened open enevelope of sorts.  You use that as your cup and throw it away when you’re finished.

Security Desk

Getting a Korean boy to stand up is really strange.   They REALLY don’t know what’s going to happen to them.  They look bewildered, apprenhensive, hurt.  Now – try to make them LEAVE their desks!

Try.  I mean.  Motion.  Say it’s OK!!!  Show them where to go.  Encourage.  Come on!!!.  They start.  They move a shoulder, part of their body heads in the right direction, but their feet stay put.  Some look longingly at their desks.  Some of them actually hold onto their desks. Ay dios mio!!!

Holy crap.  If I can’t get them out from behind their desks for the first supposedly fun game/exercise, how am I going to get them to exchange in dialogs?

Turns out Korean students stay in one classroom, their home room ALL DAY.  They sit in the same desk, in the same room, for the entire year, and they’ve done this for their entire lives.  By asking them to get out of their desk and move around, I am radically fucking with their culture.

I asked the other teachers about this (most of whom understand English well and some of whom can speak well enough to be interested in talking with me) and they say that they like this system because they get to form close relationships with students and also keep tighter control of the student body.

And about that control:  many of the men always have their stick with them.  Their beating stick, that is.  It’s 18″-24″ long, typically wood and typically about 3/4″ in diameter.  One of them has a paddle that has been signed by each of the students.  A couple of them are very rustic and crooked and extra evil looking.  None of the women teachers seem to have this stick – perhaps they get a male teacher to do this.  I’m a little confused, as in earlier conversations my co-teacher said beating the students was no longer allowed.  Maybe that means beatings that result in trips to the hospital…At any rate, I have seen one corporal punishment already, with a boy spread eagled, leaning against the hallway wall, the teacher whacking their behind.

They say that even for group work, they don’t have the students move, but just turn towards the desks behind them.

And soooo, I am facing teaching head on with total culture shock.   Because the students never change classrooms, their desks are much like we have in elementary school – with a personal storage space beneath and all their belongings in them.  We’re talking each desk is its own home, it’s own security blanket.  To get them to leave that and open their mouths in front of the scarey foreign speaking girl is just too much!

Strangely, though, the girls have absolutely zero problem doing this same thing.  I think they see these breaks from the norm as an opportunity for social interaction, which might be what the boys are shrinking from.  Incidently, I found out the boys and girls are only separated the freshman year.  The teachers say the boys are just too focused on getting a girlfriend the first year, so they keep them separated until they are more worried about studying for their exams.

Lord help these kids if they make it to an American University!  Of course, that is my mission here.  Mention the word university and you will immediately have their attention.   I played them some music.  We played a fun game, I let them ask me all kinds of questions about myself, and then I handed out a syllabus, as if we were at a university class, explaining all along how they are used, how they must wring all they can out of their university professor, and how it is up to them if they learn, how they must ASK.  But first I must get them out from behind their desks.

I think we’ll play the behind, in front of, beside, on top of, desk game next time.  (I just made that up, btw)

Oh, btw, I now have my own desk.   IN one of the teacher’s offices.  Day after day, teacher after teacher would ask, is it TRUE you have to sit in the Vice Principal’s office?  Yes.  Gasps all around.  That is terrible!  Everyone was very concerned for me.  If anything, that decision has made a lot of people want to take care of me.  Someone rallied in my defense (I know not whom) the day I couldn’t get to my coat because the Vice Principal had left for a meeting and locked his office.  Anyway, it was presented that it would be a continued hassle for him, and he agreed that maybe room should be made elsewhere for me.  So it’s nice to have other people around me!  Nobody translates anything for me, they’re all working on their own things, they come over and ask me the same things, and then move on.  I can’t remember their names, etc.  But two have really taken pains to talk with me and have mentioned me coming over and having dinner.  So that made me relax so much.  It’s going to be okay.  I’m still going to essentially be alone and isolated, because they all have their own lives and family, but at least I won’t be in solitary confinement!  Yayy!

MUST start Korean lessens as soon as possible.

Had a surprise audience with the principal yesterday.  He told me how pleased he was to have a native English speaker.  And then he went on to point out that the high school’s tag line is global leader and how very important it was that I teach the students about leadership and other cultures and that my students could be the next Barrack Obama or Ghandi, so I must do a very good job.

Sure, no pressure!  For someone with a 3 week TESOL certificate!

And then he told me I was very pretty and he gave me a flashlight with the school emblem on it.

Welcome to Korea

I’m going to walk across the street and find an alley to smoke in now.

LATER…

Well, I found out even the teachers don’t leave the campus all day.  I was told it was okay for ME to leave campus during lunch, because I am a foreigner, but that Korean teachers are expected to stay at school.  I often get asked how long have I been in school and was admonished the other day for going straight to class instead of showing up at the teacher’s room.  So now I have to be in the teacher’s room ten minutes early so someone can note that I showed up.  Similary, if I have no classes in the afternoon, I am supposed to stay in the building until the last bell rings. No problem.  I am guessing other foreign teachers in the past have merited babysitting, and it doesn’t matter to me if I do lesson planning here or at home.  Except it’s hotter than hell in the teacher’s office.

You can call me Bob

I don’t know what to call myself anymore.

Here, everyone has a hard time saying Leanne.  I never used that name – haven’t all my life.  But it’s the name on all my documents, and I only exist on documents for the most part, being new here and all.  I asked if I should go by my Korean name, Suh, Young-Sook, but I’ve been told that it is actually better for me to go by Leanne, since it is foreign sounding, and there is no other indication that I am foreign…and since I’m the Native English Teacher, it’s better if there’s something foreign about me.  The irony – in America, I go by my Asian nick-name.  In Korea, I have to go by my American name…

Suki gets mixed reviews – I’ve heard it sounds pretty, I’ve seen confusion, I’ve had people analyze it.  As I thought, after my friend and soul sister Myung Sook called me Sook-a and why (the a affterwards is kind of an endearment and nouns sometimes have an indicator after them in Korean grammer, signifying which noun is the topic or has the greater significance)  Anyway, discussing this with another co-worker we both agreed that Suki was probably a mistake by whoever told my parents or by my parents themselvs, as it was probably Sook-a.

The other day (prior to school being back in session) I had to run to the G.O.A.L.  (Global Overseas Adoptee Link) but the Korean Immigration needed to get me to sign the copies I’d made of my adoption papers and family registry.  Well, because I wasn’t  there, and because Immigration wanted it NOW, the school took  measures into their own hands and made up a stamp for me.  Turns out each Korean has a stamp made, and it is the same as a signature.  I got many many apologies for them taking this liberty with something so important, but I told them I understood they were trying to help me so I could get my bank account and phone faster.  So now I have an official stamp, with my Korean name on it!  I just need to get some red ink.    I feel like stamping something important now.  If the kids were here, I would write “made by” and then stamp them.