This is from my Seoul sister, about me and girl 4709, who I believe is my sister, and who I am searching for:
Last night, I fell asleep thinking of you… and this morning I woke up dreaming of you.
You were here to visit me. After I woke up, I went to see you, and I told you, I believe Sook Ja is your sister. I think your real name is Sook Hee, since Korean siblings usually have one common syllable in their names, that’s why you responded to the name Suki. They couldn’t change your sister’s name because she was old enough to know her name. That’s what happened to SunnyJo, they changed her name, but not her brother’s who was older than her. (I just finished reading her book.) I found my thought so logical that I tried to convince you more, by talking about an article I read on NYT, about the boy whose name was changed by his father’s girlfriend who sent him to the orphanage. I told you they usually don’t change older children’s name, because they would rebel like that boy. I talked non stop, and you said nothing until I finished talking. Then you asked, what are we going to do today? I said I don’t know, what do you want to do? you want to go swim? and I stayed silent. I woke up while I was thinking of what we could do, just to realize it was only a dream.
Sometimes it’s crazy how she and I have nearly the same thoughts very close together. All through the movie, A Brand New Life, I would hear Sook Hee and think it was my name being called, and for the first time I wondered if that was my real name. And also last week I noticed somewhere that it is common for one name to occur often within one family. But I’d never put it together before. But my Seoul sister did, in this nice dream.
It’s so important, this dream. Like everything having to do with Korea and adoption, we need hope to temper all the tragedy. As you can see, it doesn’t have to be a lot. Sometimes the smallest things can be the most significant.
Thank you for the dream.