I have spent the last year exposing myself to benefit society.
Like Mr. S., I can say I cared about society but society doesn’t care about me.
I think I am finished.
I can not continue to sit with adoptees and bond through tears.
I can not continue to try and introduce any new ways of thought to people with ears in their fingers.
I can not continue to give and give and give to people who don’t want it.
I must do something that gives back to me.
I must protect some small place for myself.
I no longer care to help Korea.
I am going to do what I have to do and leave at the earliest opportunity.
I refuse to cry about any of this mess ever again.
I now have zero interest in learning Korean.
I am now only in Korea to capitalize on my English skills.
As soon as my bills are paid and my son graduates, I am searching for a new home.